The INGs

It's amazing how the first post I saw since I last updated was that.

You do realise that you changed pretty much this time don't you?
I'm not saying it's your fault but it's really damn tiring trying to maintain this friendship.
I tried calling & asking to meet up for lunch or something but the responses I get everytime are less than enthusiatic.
It just makes me feel that you can't be bothered anymore, you know?
Me facing a difficult time is one thing.
Have you ever thought about why I'd call you first and not my own cousin?
I'm not expecting you to say those comforting things because I know it's never easy.
But do you know how much it sucks when you're just patronizing me time and again?
It's not that I don't realise.
I just feel that if you want to tell me, you would.
There are things I'd probe and some I won't.
But have you ever trusted me enough to even tell me the simplest things? No.
I have to guess what's wrong with you, and whether is there anything I can do to make you feel better.
But it's so hard because I have absolutely no idea what is going on in your life at all.
Doesn't the friendship seem so superficial at times?
Seems so unreal because we just seem close that we know nothing much about each other?

I know you've never been the type to take the initiative to ask people out.
Or does it only occur to me?
In any case, that's pretty much why I'm always the one trying to arrange meetups, or even a simple lunch is suffice.
But recently it seems just so hard to even have a simple lunch with you because the responses you gave somehow tells me you don't want to.
And that you'd very much rather spend the time with people whom you see everyday?
I don't know what's wrong lah.
But all I know is that I'm really tired of trying already.
As much as we all want everything to be fine again, it's not highly possible when I'm the only one trying.

So, it's either we try and work things out, or we'll just leave this thing to rot. :)
And by we, I just meant the 2 of us for now.

10:01 PM